Hello my dear watchers and friends,
I have been thinking a long time about writing this journal entry, but since this has been in my head now for a few days and it just would not leave... why not writing about it.
As those of you who folow me for a while now know, I have been rather sick over the past months. I do not want to go too much into depth here but this month it has been a year now that I sit at home and am not able to work any more.
While first my inspiration did not suffer much from this condition, it started to do so though very soon. Gong through all the therapies I have gone thorugh for sure takes its energy and there have been times in the past months, where I pretty much slept all day and night, if possible.
Then there is the family situation: As you might know, I am a single Mom and while I have had help from my childs father in the past months, it still is pretty much a full time job to raise a child, especially when you are sick. On the positive side of all this I met a wonderful man last fall who is at my side since then and helps me out wherever he can, and be it just sitting next to me while I sleep to recover. I was very lucky to find him and spend a lot of time with him.
While all this was going on in my life, the whole 3D world moved on. And it did obviously without me. The other day I took a look at all the new toys available and realized, that with what I have, I am far behind everything now, due to my break.There are many things I would love to buy and o learn... but being home and not working for about a year now means, that I have no spare money left for anything, also not for my beloved hobby.
Well, I could go on forever here now. Last night I opened up DAZ Studio, just to realize, I was staring at the empty viewport, having no clue about what to do next, no pictures in my head, no stories.... nothing. I feel I lost track to it completely. And this has not been the first time that I had this feeling in the past months. Yeah, I know, every now and then there is a new little humble work of mine but let´s be honest... those are nothing compared with what I was able to create and it saddens me to look at these since they are not the same any more. I am not the same any more, at least art-wise. I totally lost the connection.
I am not saying now that I will never create anything ever again, but you really should not expect anything from me any more. I am so sorry to say this, especially because I have really great and dedicated followers which will now be dissappointed.
Maybe I find my way back into 3D. Since it has been a huge and loved part of my life in my past, I really like the idea of creating again one day. But for now, this is just not possible. Maybe it is time to move on. To be honest, I have no idea.
Thank you very much for reading and also thank you for your ongoing support!
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EDIT: I hope, this post did not come across in a wrong way, nobody has to explain themself for not being active any more. I also understand that since I have been inactive for years, that of course now the traffic is a lot less. This is not what I was trying to bring across with this. I just wanted to say that I am sad to see that so many great people have gone, are inactive or even pulled their work from here. I miss the good old DA times, I guess, and this post is me being sentimental. :-) __________________ Well, the good times of DA had been over already a few years back. Many people left over the years and then there was the Eclipse update which made even more people leave. Now, with the AI shit going on, again many people left. DA used to be such a good place with real feedback and communication, vibrant and colorful. I miss those times of fun, kiribans and art challenges. I feel like nobody is really noticing my pictures any more. Yes, I have views on them but that does not
Sahi character interview
Okay, I have done this years ago and to be honest - I have no idea if someone is still interested in this kind of stuff since DA became rather quiet and there have been many changes here. Many people are not active any more and so on... However, feel free to post a question you would like to ask my character Sahi and I will take the first ten questions and write down a character interview. Once written, I will publish it here of course. If interested, you might also find this helpful. Have fun!
Little update October 2022
Another sign of life from my side! Crazy times actually. I still struggle with health problems (heart... kidneys... Don't worry, I won't go into details but man, I feel exhausted and there is so many doctor appointments...) but yeah, I hang in there. I try to be here as much as possible. I would so love to do an art challenge for example or maybe offer giveaways and / or commissions. At the moment, I am not very reliable though and I hope, this will be better again soon! 😊 Also, I have such a fun idea for a little image series I would love to make, but again... I really must see if I can manage to get this done. We will see I guess. Thank you for still being here with me! That means a lot, it really does!
Sahi Astai'uhad - character sheet
Could not resist making this one even though I have no idea if anyone still reads those... 😸 :bulletblack: FULL NAME: Sahi Astai'uhad. :bulletblack: MEANING: "Unseen, son of Astai". :bulletblack: NICKNAME: Sahi. :bulletblack: ACTUAL AGE: 176 years.. :bulletblack: RESIDENCE: The Nyxad. :bulletblack: AGE APPEARANCE: I am so bad with guessing people... :bulletblack: SPECIES: Dai'mar. :bulletblack: GENDER: Male. :bulletblack: SEXUAL PREFERANCE: Hetero. :bulletblack: MARITAL STATUS: Single. :bulletblack: KIDS: None. :bulletblack: OCCUPATION: Military Neravhar. APPEARANCE :bulletblack: HAIR COLOR: Blue-black. :bulletblack: HAIR STYLE AND LENGTH: Shaved sides, the rest down to the middle of his back. :bulletblack: EYES COLOR: Red. :bulletblack: HEIGHT: About 1,87 m. :bulletblack: ABNORMALITIES: None visible (at least for his species), extraordinairy biotic talent (Neravhar), some internal cybernetics. :bulletblack: DISTINGUISHING MARKS (SCARS,MOLES etc.):
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There is no need to push yourself. As someone who has had much going on in personal RL myself in the last 3 years, I know just too well how difficult it is to see losing the connection to one's own beloved art form and one's characters and worlds. I had to let go, but it eventually comes back after a few years little by little. after all there has been a reason we have been doing it for all this time of our life. it's just part of us in some way. and we might not return to the same form/style of execution after the break, but like flowing water - it will find its way out. the way it needs to have. it might be in a different shape and a different way. but it will get out somehow. just have courage and faith in your own creativity <3